New Directions and Late-Night Thoughts

New Beginnings

New directions are just what you make of it. In the past few months, I’ve been doing some soul searching about what I should be doing with my life. What I’m currently doing is just not working. For the past year and a half, I’ve had a single passion- a passion for reducing our waste in creative ways. I’ve searched for opportunities to pursue this passion to the fullest extent. Over the past year and half, I have also been working on sharing my passion for waste management solutions that don’t include throwing everything away.

New directions can be fun, but also scary. New things are happening at Ever Change Productions, so I'm just taking time to reflect.

I’ve tried to bend every which way, trying to fit into one group or another, with the eventual hope that I can work my way into something I can truly be passionate about but some how it just never quite works out. Any time I think I’m making progress, it ends up putting me back a few steps. When people say they will be there, I show up and they are no where to be found. It happens to everyone, I know, but I won’t lie, I’m getting increasingly frustrated with my life and progress. I need a change.

What Now?

These events and disappointments have led me to do some serious soul searching about what I want to be doing with my life.  It’s no longer about what I think will work, what I think I’ll be able to settle for, but I really want to do.

I love the idea of educating people through videos, I love the idea of Ever Change Productions and bringing positive change into focus in a world of chaos. Another thing I’m trying to do more is publicly admit my short-comings and failures. God has been helping to come to the realization that in helping others, weaknesses are more beneficial than strengths.

Most people, myself included, seem to want the person with all the answers. I like the idea of someone reliable not leading me on a wild-goose chase. Often that comes from the myth that they need to have all the answers instead of admitting that they don’t know and finding someone who does. People only want to hire people with all the answers because it’s supposed to be a surer sign of success.  In the past, I’ve wanted to use this site as a portfolio, which made admitting shortcomings difficult because I don’t want potential employers to see and question their decision to hire me.

But at the same time, a person with all the answers can be unrelatable. I like the idea of people who have it altogether, but with social anxiety I can’t approach them. For example, if I go into an office to receive help of any kind, I don’t want to talk with someone in a t-shirt and jeans, nor do I want to talk with someone dressed to the 9s. Someone dressed to the 9s probably has a lot more important things to do than talk to little ‘ol me.

When I’m at a job, I try to think in that mindset. I receive a lot flack about dressing down a bit, but at the end of the day, I want to be relatable. I don’t want to seem like I have all the answers, but I do want to be the person who helps you find them. But new directions are good, and I am going to try to use that approach in more areas of my life.

When I started Ever Change Productions, I had the goal of finding a partner to help with some of the more social aspects of the business. Also, a partner would have helped cut down the work load. Handling all the equipment, making sure everything is going right and knowing the answer to every technical problem is a challenge for one person. Although, I can do a full video with all the accessories, I just don’t want to. It takes too long and people don’t like the price that comes with it.

Finding Acceptance

But with acceptance, comes new directions. As you can see, I haven’t been able to find a partner and it so it’s time to quit forcing myself to be something else and just accept my situation. Because of my lack of outgoing personality and motivation to keep putting myself out there to get rejected is turning this into a failure. Even though I’m working on the documentary on how to reduce, reuse and recycle in Stillwater, the amount of time it’s taking because I’ve lost the motivation to keep being rejected puts it on the failure list.

New Directions

So I’ve been thinking, what do I have the equipment, passion, knowledge and know-how for? Instead of feeling like I’m going to inconvenience them for taking time out of their busy day, I’m going to help other people add another arm to their business through online courses. There are a variety of opportunities online from just video classes to full coursework accompanied with videos. I am in the process of launching my own series for upcycling and this will be launched at the first of the year. Once I have a proven model, I can team up with other individuals who might be interested in teaching or another financial avenue for their business.

The Future

Also, during my time of searching for new directions, I was given opportunity to start a repurposed furniture business with my aunt. For the past few years, I have been praying for an opportunity to be able to repurpose things for a living and now I can’t think of a better partner. We have so many opposite skills and interests, it’s really the perfect match. We will also be doing to online class series in the future, so stay tuned for that. Although, the website is not ready yet, please feel free to check out our Facebook and Instagram. We’d really love for you to join on this journey. We are selling a line of paint for repurposing furniture, we will also have an online store and blog at, which will be up September 1.

Again, finding ways to repurpose things is all about accepting the flaws and using them as character for the piece. Just as God shows us love even we don’t have it all together, we also find purpose and love in these pieces despite their condition.

I encourage you to take it easy and give yourself a break, even if you don’t have it all together. Your biggest strength is your weaknesses, it’s how you connect with others and make a bigger impact.


2 thoughts on “New Directions and Late-Night Thoughts

    1. No I haven’t done that. I mostly to connect through Facebook and and their blogs. But you’re right about that, you can find just about anything on Pinterest. 🙂

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